In fact this is the story of the effect of a series of intuitions I had on forgiveness. The entire sequence grew out of the realization that the great religions have succeeded only very slightly over the centuries in making their combined effect felt on the bitter hatreds growing out of often disastrously cruel wars. This I believe has grown out of the dissensions between the religions themselves down through the centuries. This reflection led me to try to intuit an antidote to these ancient hatreds, and finally I was driven to conclude that forgiveness was the only conceivable manner in which there was some hope of progress. But progress through forgiveness! First, how, where and when could it be applied?
For weeks my intuition time each day was filled with the imponderables in forgiveness itself. It defied every scientific principle I knew to start even a method for measuring and handling this most intangible commodity. But I stuck it out stubbornly as one must do quite frequently with a deep intuition that herein lies a priceless solution if it can be persuaded to reveal its innermost working.
I went so far as to discuss the conviction I had had intuitively, that this had to be the approach taken, with several groups with whom I am in fairly frequent contact. In each case the reaction was like an earthquake, and there was excitement exploding almost uncontrollably until, each time, we finally parted ways to go home.
It was in the third group that the most stubborn and vociferous reaction of all occurred, and this from a fellow we all loved and who rarely lifted his voice in objection. But with this subject, it was clear we had hit something he could not control, and even when someone else was trying to voice an opinion, he continued to splutter just under his breath.
I tried suggesting that his action was all the more reasons to make the gesture of at least trying to forgive the person in his own family whom he could not even contemplate forgiving. He left, finally, in the back seat of a full car of friends, and could be heard all the way down the drive with his continued explosions drifting back to our ears.
When several days had passed and I found myself approaching the date for a month's absence from my old haunts I found that my morning intuition was the deep knowledge that I could not leave my close friend without some effort to calm him.
By spectacular good luck I managed to find this normally untraceable fellow in minutes, and told him at once that we must find the means for a face-to-face conversation.
He broke into my exhortation and said simply, "It isn't necessary." I heaved a sigh of dejection, as I was sure that he was announcing to me that he had already revisited the topic and found his inner reaction was unbudgeable. I tried harder, and again he said it was not necessary for us to meet. This time he went on: "When I was coming back from our meeting in he car I began to think, how small was the situation that I could not forgive, and as I saw that, I found a rush of friendship return for the fellow. No, it isn't necessary, we made a date on the spot to have a big celebration lunch together in two weeks at a deluxe restaurant and it is all already forgotten."
Note, he did not even use the word "forgiven."
I confess that I had hardly expected such a change so fast even in the best of circumstances, and here it had arrived almost of its own without work. True, at the time of the original meeting of the group discussing forgiveness, I had ventured that even in the gesture to attempt forgiveness, forces would be set in motion that would astound by their cleansing capability. But I am frank that what I said at that time was no more than an intuition based on absolutely no personal experience. But I have found that this is often a characteristic of an intuition, that one some way has insight into the future of events, and can predict with an assuredness at times which is almost dishonest when judged on my sainted mother's pretty tough principles.
Saturday, October 13, 2007
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Dear Dusk,
I respect the natural wisdom of your words.
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